Travelling 

https://www.adventureally.com/my-map-of-countries-visited?id=20170718596dba7d46a578.32987211

Came across this link on fb and thought to myself, okay why not just do this for fun. And to be honest, it isn’t a lot of countries but I’m still very grateful for the opportunity that I have in my life so far to be able to travel to all these places. 

There is still many places in the world I wanna visit. And I realise it is incredibly hard and pointless to try and cover everything in a short period. I think I’m the kind that prefers taking my time instead of rushing from places to places– and also, I do think I’m getting tired of “cities”. I say this because, perhaps it is the similarities between them in Europe, or because I am always seemingly much in preference for the suburbs or non-cities. I don’t think I’ll be travelling again any time soon, but I do think that my next destination of choice would be closer to nature than to a city.

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Dr. Frost

So I’ve recently found an unexpected gem.

 

No, it isn’t a person. Sorry to disappoint.

 

However, it is one of the best things I’ve read in recent times.

 

*drum roll* Make way for this comic that I’ve binge-read (so used to saying binge-watch lol) — Dr. Frost!!!! I really recommend this to anyone who loves abnormal psychology, or wanna read an engaging comic in general — http://www.webtoons.com/en/drama/dr-frost/list?title_no=371 <– here is the link to the first chapter!!! Super easy to read as well, and I love how inspirational, witty and intellectual it can get. The fact that the author consults real, actual psychologists about it makes me happy. The author sounds really funny too hahaha. Sadly, I’ve read till the end (which is just Season 1 by the way). Now I’ve got one more thing to add to my bucket list, which is to meet the author of this comic (he’s a South Korean so maybe got chance right). Yeah, that’s how good it is HAHAHA.

And honestly, to be able to make something like this is something I can only ever dream of. I studied psychology, because I thought it sounded quite interesting. And maybe, the standard route would be to aim to be a clinical psychologist or be a researcher. But imagine using the knowledge gained to write a comic??? Which is why I’m always very impressed by psychological thrillers in general- be it in the form of a film, show, musical or in this case, a webtoon. Still don’t know what I wanna do after my final year, but at least I’m not regretting doing psychology as my major yet.

 

 I just wanna say that I miss this little fella already.

Our fates intertwined at one of the finest vineyards in Italy; near the Valeggio region. 

I even opened the wrong car door because of it HAHAHA.
Sian. I miss exchange already. 

The End?

My exchange has finally ended. I’ve touched down in my home ground, Singapore, a few days ago but all I ever did was sleep and eat. Perhaps, I was not ready to socialize nor do anything productive- I binge watched a hong kong drama with my mother; 15 episodes straight… from 11pm till 9am the next day. What is wrong with me? Haha.

But anyway, I’m slowly adapting back to the Singapore lifestyle. As I went to the nearest coffeeshop at my house (Hola) to get some chicken rice, I felt a little strange. I don’t know if it was the fact that I woke up at 6pm (my body clock is screwed for now), but everything felt so fuzzy and… fast-paced. So many people, so many things, happening so fast, my brain couldn’t really keep up. I was happy to have bought my chicken rice, despite the lack of tofu, and was eagerly walking towards the Gong Cha shop I knew 6 months ago, only to realise that it has been replaced by Li Ho (I knew about this, but I think Gong Cha was still etched in my mind). I felt a little pang of sadness, but then I was also curious to try Li Ho’s flavors. I bought its classic milk tea with pearls, 50% sugar level. It tasted okay. I guess that’s what I learnt from exchange- to be curious about everything, and yeah, I think i will still have post-exchange withdrawals, but I know I will be integrated into the lifestyle of a Singaporean in no time. While walking back, I came across the small stall-cart that was selling ice cream, with the bread wrapping it. Was kinda happy to see it, and immediately ordered the “红豆” (red bean) heh.

I’ll write down my exchange experiences in due time, as what this blog was created for.

As I’m approaching my final year in NUS, there are lots of uncertainties. For instance, I’m no longer staying in hall so in a way, I feel a little empty. I don’t really have a group of friends that I can hang with outside, and I have yet to do or secure an internship, never mind a job. There are so many things I still wanna do, but I always don’t know if I am ever capable enough to try- and more importantly, I am always super not confident. I think there are so many more capable people in every aspect than me, and like, I’m doomed to fail if I ever try. I think this was really evident when I was in hall because honestly there are so many talented people there! But still, I think, I need to be thankful for everything that life has given me, and for my last year, I’m giving myself a challenge- to do what I really want to do. Really really want to do. Even if that means trying for something you’re not so sure of- because I know i’ll regret it if i don’t.

This post is really, just a mini reflection and a reminder to myself- and I know it won’t be easy, but nothing good ever comes easy, y’know?

Oh yeah, I watched Hidden Figures and Arrival while on the plane back to Singapore. My first time taking an Emirates plane!!! Tbh, i think the service doesn’t match up to the amount I paid LOL because 1) water was spilled on me, albeit accidentally, by the air steward 2) service was super slow and 3) i probably compared with other airlines — I know that being air stewards and stewardesses ain’t easy, a customer can ask for orange juice, you go all the way back to get the orange juice, open it up, pour it, and walk back to the customer. the person beside the customer then asks for an apple juice, and then you have to go all the way back, open the apple juice, pour it, and walk ALLLLL the way back. and this is just 1 out of the many shitty scenarios they face. but, despite all that, just felt that it didn’t match up haha (but this is just my opinion)

But yea. Go watch Hidden Figures. It’s great.

 

 

 

 

 

 

hmmm. today i thought about a lot of thoughts (thoughtception lol) and i actually am writing down some of my biggest insecurities including fear of rejection in another private post. it sounds so simple, really, and i’m sure everyone has their own set of insecurities to deal with. but to actually sit down and write it, and then come up with an action plan to overcome it is actually quite hard for me.

http://blog.iqmatrix.com/fear-of-rejection

this link above has proven to be quite useful to me; actually never really did such an exercise before i think. not at least in the past few years. i think i have gained much more clarity in my life now, and one day i promise to actually post my list of insecurities and the process of overcoming them hehe. sounds quite lame la, but ya, not that i’m depressed about my life, just felt it to be something i think is important to do once in a while. nobody told me to do this, i just realised i am quite insecure about a lot of things and felt like i needed this. 🙂

— will really properly blog about my exchange experiences once i come back from exchange! (cause i want to properly talk about it instead of like giving half-assed posts haha) —

until then… Ciao~! (thought it was a Spanish word, but was so wrong when I realised it came from Italy; everyone in Rome was using that haha)